This isn't where I'm supposed to be

Tomorrow is my repeat HSG. I spent the last week fighting with my insurance to finally find out today at 3pm that it will be covered. Now that the stress of that is gone, I feel nervous and scared.

All I can keep thinking is I'm supposed to be 16 weeks pregnant right now. I'm supposed to be finding out the sex of our baby. I don't want another HSG. I just want what was taken away from me.

I'm scared to learn what the next step is for us. I've tried to mentally prepare for the possibility of IVF but the fact is that I'm still scared out of my mind.

I'll let you all know the news tomorrow afternoon. If you can just send some positive vibes and good thoughts our way, I'd appreciate it!